Where have I been?

Well, ladies Im kinda out of this fun weight loss challenge. I found out the first of March that we are expecting baby 2. So Im going to be bloated, and starving and of course gaining weight till November. Im going to have the healthiest pregnancy I can, and can I say I have only gained 3 lbs in 11 weeks! GO me. On average you gain 5lbs your first trimester and well, I only have a week to go till Im in my second. Im having a wonderful pregnancy, full of happiness and thoughts of how to teach my son to be a loving big brother, names, nursery decorations, and no morning sickness. I don't even feel pregnant. I really really REALLY want another boy, but I get opposite of what I want, so it will be a girl! Haha, we are very excited and can't wait to meet this little one! Ill still post here and there about my workouts, recipes and anything else healthy I can think of...so if Im here and there for the next 8 months you know why! Good Luck to everyone, I hope you meet your goal soon. Lets see some more bikini's this year!!! I won't be joining, or maybe I will, we will see how big I am at that point!

I Can Do This!

So after a woe is me day yesterday Im feeling a little better. I will admit I didn't eat a single thing all day till my dear husband took me to Subway...that footlong didn't last long! Those veggies and meat tasted so good. So Im back to where I need to be mentally. Today Im emotional due to my husband leaving for PA this morning. I should be excited to have a big bed to myself, to not be woken up by snoring, or someone yanking the pillow from under neither my head, to have more then 24 hours to do whatever I want....I can watch the tv shows I want, exercise, get the house clean, run around and do literally whatever till I pick him up tomorrow night! BUT instead I miss him. Ive spent hours crying this morning and trying not to think about it. But everytime our little one does something he shouldn't I break out in tears again thinking you wouldn't do that if daddy was here. I was supposed to work this morning and was looking forward to getting my mind off of everything but she texted me and said she only works a few hours and to take the day off. Im happy about having time to relax at home but working was going to help me get thru the day....Now I don't have any plans till about 5 today and I can't control my tears! Nap time is the only thing I have to look forward to...and thats a few hours away!

Enough of my emotional mood! The other day I was driving behind a cop and was shocked by the little license plate do dad thing...it said something like...Sandy, the city of healthy people....I guess didn't get the memo! Ok so I live in Utah, where everyone loves sports and you see about a million joggers every morning. People ski, snowboard, there is marathons, 5/10k's constantly, hike, bike, you name it, its done here in Utah. Im learning to enjoy the outdoors but Im from Cleveland. The land of keep your mouth closed and don't piss anyone off. The land of going out to eat to be with friends...don't exercise unless your rich and can afford a gym membership...blah blah blah. My husband is from Utah and he is more outdoorsy then me, but Ive learned that I LOVE to hike thru the mountains. I love the fresh air, and seeing new things. Im excited to become one of those joggers...one of those marathon runners. I look forward to these things. Thats why Im doing this. I have soooo many goals for myself, and I want to teach my son, and future children, that if you put your mind to something no matter what it is, work hard, and have faith and you can achieve it. I want to run a marathon by the time Im 30...6 years to go! I want to do a 5k this summer, a 10k is even a possibility. I want to hike to the top of Mt Timpanogos...bottom to top...a total of 7 miles. Ive done the 3 mile and HOLY CRAP!!!! I want to run a few miles every morning. I want to be healthy and happy. I want to be an example for my children. I don't want to be the over weight mom that can't keep up, I don't want to make excuses for not being able to chase them..I want to give them and myself the picture perfect life. I know its possible, Im still young, I have faith that I can meet all of these goals plus more!! With all of this being said, my son is throwing a tantrum because his toys are making noises...I think we both need to relax right now....Sesame Street, here we come!
Im going grocery shopping today, but working out a ton to make up for missing yesterday(Id like to kick myself for yesterday). Ive decided against Atkins, Im just going to keep doing what Im doing...its paying off slowly and that means its healthier then loosing 10lbs a week!

Lets skip last week!

So I'm just skipping my weigh in and measuring this week. I feel yucky after having a horrible week. I ate out like 5 times this week...mommies group went to Cheesecake factory, valentines dinner at Mimi's Cafe, Subway one night, Panda Express (its what my husband wanted for valentines) not to mention the sweets I received! My husband bought me a box of chocolates and those sweetheart candies, which are my absolute favorite. I can let the chocolate sit forever, but not those tiny little hearts with happy little sayings on them...those nothing but sugar colorful friends of mine.

Its been a depressing week...my moods go with the weather. Sunny, I'm happy. Snow, I'm ok. Rain, eh. Cloudy rain and snow mix...leave me alone! Its been a mix of everything this week. Today its just crappy! So Im down, plus my husband is leaving for PA bright and early tomorrow morning for a grad school interview. So I had a meeting at church on Thursday night, and I was feeling ok. I was waiting by the door for some other women and one walked in looked at me and kept going. I figured she didn't recognize me...so I get to the room for the meeting and help her set things up. She asks how I'm doing and everything, you know the I'm going to be nice small talk...then she asks me something...drum roll.....When are you due!? WHAT! I respond as nicely as I can with, I'm not pregnant, but we are trying. I wanted to run out of the room crying. Ive lost weight, and feel better but this just killed my motivation. So me loosing weight makes me look pregnant? UGH! I bawled when I got home, and I will admit Ive had my fair share of breakdowns this week. Yesterday was the worse! I was getting ready for church and then all the sudden I broke down. Seeing how large my legs looked, my arms not being able to go straight down because of weight, my nice spare tire aka pregnancy tummy I guess....After that its just a slap in the face. I know she didn't mean it and everything but I'm working so hard to loose weight and that's the response I get! All of my weight is in my tummy...but not all the way around...its hard to explain!

Picture please...here it is finally! I look horrible right now, I haven't gotten ready for the day, but you get the idea!

Yes, so I have a gut...but I don't think I look preggo! But I can see where the idea comes from, with most of my weight gain being in my stomach. It was just a slap in the face. Because it was said, I'm having an emotional time with it. Instead of being healthy and loosing weight the right way, I want to go back to my high school way...not eating at all! I would only take a bite or two out of something and that was all....I was as little as 95lbs! Luckily, I grew up and realized what I was doing, but sometimes, the littlest comment can make you stupid again. I'm thinking about doing the atkins diet..I know I said I wasn't going to "diet" but its just eating healthy and knocking out starchy foods...the phase one is a killer, I don't know how long I will last. Grocery shopping tonight for veggies veggies veggies, meat and cheese. Those seem to be the only things I can eat....but Im still doing some research on it!

The Numbers Game

So every Monday is my offical weigh in...ugh! This morning not so impressed...I lost a pound, one, uno, un seul...you get the point. BUT on my defensive, my husband took me out to dinner Saturday for my birthday, and then yesterday being the Super Bowl Im ok with one pound gone. Would I have liked to loose more? Of course! But its better then nothing.


This is all just a game, depending on how many calories you eat, burn, gain...depends on your outcome! Here is a little example. Saturday I had Macaroni Grill for dinner, so yummy of course. So I went with the thought of just enjoy myself, its my birthday and I have to enjoy it! Ok so I had Chicken Parm., then my dear husband had them sing to me, they also brought me a HUGE piece of chocolate cake, covered in melted chocolate and nuts...sooo yummy. So I only ate HALF of both. All I ate all day was some samples at costco and pb toast so that I could enjoy my dinner. So my plan was come home workout and burn about 300 calories. Well, instead, I came home and wanted to know how many calories I just ate. Chicken Parm, 1450! Good thing I only ate half....Chocolate dessert 1500!!! Thanks hubby for splitting this one with me. I chose not to work out I was tired and exhausted from being out and about all day...Dinner was still under 2000 calories so I didn't worry about it. Sunday morning...got on the scale, 2 lbs gone! WHAT! I just ate almost 2000 calories in one meal and my body decided to LOOSE weight! We can sit here and crunch numbers all day...but in the end our body makes the decission what to do! I had about 2000 calories in a day, which even when Im not on a diet, I can never eat that much, so my body has a hard time loosing when it isn't getting much! Its not rocket science thanks goodness...so now I know...eat a little more burn the same, better outcome.

I think its important we learn what works for OUR bodies, what works for me won't work for you. My body loves that Im drinking tons of water and eating healthier smaller portions...it also loves that I still live a little, Im not giving up everything, Im enjoying things I love in smaller portions.

Here are my numbers that are so hard to admit....Its hard to put myself out there like this..


weight-155 lbs
height-5 ft (Im a shorty)

waist-36 inches (same as my husband...sad for me)
left arm- 12 inches
right arm-12.5 inches

left thigh- 21.5 inches
right thigh-21 inches

left calf-15.5 inches
right calf-15 inches

I feel gross! Ugh, same waist as my husband...but every monday, I will post my measurements...I hope I see a change quicker with these numbers then I am with my weight!

Bring on the Pain!!!

First, the green tea doesn't taste that bad. I was shocked and I'm drinking just one glass a day. Of course, its not a miracle drink so I haven't seen rapid weight loss or unicorns...but Ill give it a month and see what happens!
Second, I love the hurt feeling. You know the one you get after working out, the next morning you get up and its just all over, its this sore feeling...it doesn't hurt and in your mind you have no clue. But then you think some more, and holy crap your body hurts from working out, its reacting the right way. This morning my butt and lower abdomen hurt, I don't think I have EVER felt this areas ache....I didn't know I had muscles there! I was so happy! Happy about pain, yes, you better believe it. So I say bring on the pain, I want to ache, sweat, and feel muscles that I didn't know exisited...its a wonderful feeling!

So this weekend is my 24th birthday, where has time gone? But I was really thinking today, and I'm glad Ive put myself to this challenge. I'm still young, only have one child, and my body doesn't completely hate me yet. I am so happy that I'm finally doing this, for myself. I am doing better with weight loss now then I ever have. I am feeling better and life isn't out to get me.

Well, The Office is over, my husband went to the movies with his brother, the little one is in bed, and I'm going to go workout. I'm doing so well, I know its rude to brag, but I truly am so proud of myself. I have never worked on something that I wanted this hard. Thank you motivation for finding me and becoming my friend. I think we have a long fun road ahead of us...

Green Tea

Should I try it or not? I heard the taste is horrible at first, that you have to choke it down, but after some time you get use to it.

My grandma is drinking 3 glasses a day and in a month I think, maybe a tiny bit longer, she has lost 18lbs...she doesn't exercise, and isn't on a diet. Can we say jealous?

I already bought some and its ready to be used..but Im scared I will hate it and won't see results! Im debating on making a little glass right now...but I can't force myself to drink it plain. I mean seriously, plain...no sugar, no honey, no flavor, just plain green tea. It doesn't even sound appealing, but the weight loss does.

Anyone else tried it? What do you think? Is the result worth choking it down for a little bit??

Day...Who Knows!

Ok so Ive not been very good with updating things on here. I'm chasing after a little monster, cleaning, cooking, working, shopping (my addiction other then food) etc etc BUT I am so happy that I lost 4lbs in a week. That's amazing for me. This week I'm working hard again...I'm trying to burn 600 calories a day, and Ill add, its not that easy! Luckily, cleaning and chasing a kid adds up. I asked my husband for a body bug type of thing for my birthday, he said NO...but then I found out how much they were and I was ok with that.

I'm stilling using the EA Active, which, if you have a Wii, I totally recommend getting the EA Active over the Wii fit. I feel better after using active. I use the fit to warm up and cool down and then a hard workout from the active and I feel amazing!

Ive been eating sugar which I know I said I wouldn't, but its hard not to. I'm going to try again to cut it out, or to just have one sweet thing a day. I can't quit cold turkey with sugar...I don't know how people can just quit eating sugar...its one of those things that I crave, and I have to have it!
My husband and I enjoy eating out, I thought this was going to be a problem. I mean eating out usually means you get something you normally wouldn't, then you add all the extras, you drink pop, and sometimes even a dessert...you easily eat 1300+ calories. Well, last Friday was my father in laws birthday and we all went out. I wanted a big burger, or chicken parm....but instead I got a fruit salad. Romaine lettuce with raspberries, blueberries, strawberries, pineapple, oranges and lemon poppy seed yogurt dressing on the side. I think that was by far the best salad I have ever had! And I knew it was healthy...plus I did the fork/dressing trick...you know where you get the dressing on the side, then dip your fork in it then get food on your fork. With this salad though, you almost didn't even need the dressing. I will definitely be going back to that restaurant just for that salad!

Well, its early, my son is still asleep and I need to get some working out done before he gets up.
OH and today, Im posting some before pictures...I know Ive lost 4lbs but believe me, it doesn't show...

Im Behind...

Only in posts that is! But I did get on the scale this morning and 156!!!!! I'm absolutely trilled, Ill admit Thursday and yesterday, I didn't do nearly as much as I should have. Yesterday I even had onion rings :-( But I'm still proud of myself 156...*happy dance*
I still need to work out so maybe Ill get to that before the little one wakes up. I really need to catch up on my work outs. I am going to be doing alot of walking today, Saturdays in my home are spent out and about. I'm sure we will go to Costco, the mall, a few little stores in the area, and we were thinking about a dollar movie!!! So walk walk walk walk, sit! You gals have a wonderful day!

Curse You, Royal Dansk Cookies

So today has been going fine and dandy, till I remembered we have some royal dansk cookies in the pantry! Oh, How I want to go eat, 3, 4 or 5! That buttery goodness in the form of a cookie! I think I hear them calling me....I'm trying so hard not to run to the pantry and grab one, but I shouldn't, can't, and won't! I'm doing well, I cant let some cookie take over.....
Since my mind is on the run with sweets, I suddenly remember everything we have in the house...pumpkin ice cream, carmel popcorn, buttery carmel, jello, cookies, peanut m&m's, Charleston chew, cake and brownie mixes that would only take an hour to make...I'm sure you get the point! My mind is on sweets and nothing more. I want sugar, I want fat, I want anything and everything that is bad for me at this point! My son is running around...maybe Ill get some cleaning and more playtime in...I just can't think about the sweets...
Curse you Royal Dansk....
Curse myself, for stocking up on them after Christmas when they went on sale for .60 a tin!! Yes .60, I bought 4....ooops!

Day 3

Weight:157.8
BMI: 31.03
Workout:
45 minutes of a hard workout with the ea active
45 minutes on the will fit(strength training, yoga and aerobics...)



Feeling great, especially since the scale is showing progress. No sugar, still doing great, but my husband has a sweet tooth so I might give in just a little today. Ill workout some more before bed of course to work it off. (around noon)
I found out that you need to burn roughly 3500 calories a week to loose a pound. Which equals out to 500 a day!!! Looks like I need to work just a little harder. I'm going to push for 600 a day!!!

The bad news....I gave in to those royal pieces of crap! I had 2 cookies, and they weren't as good as I was hoping! Why would I give into something like that, and why must it taste like nothing that I was dreaming of? So I repeat myself, Curse you, Royal Dansk Cookies.....curse you for taking away my sweets for the day, and being sugary!!! I was doing so well till you started calling my name...Ill remember how much I didn't enjoy you, next time you call me!!!

Tomorrow I go to work again, I'm debating on taking my Ea active with me so I can work out while I'm there....but she does have a treadmill...maybe Ill just get on there and run! I have a 5k that I signed up for in March, I want to be able to run the whole thing. My dream is to one day run in a marathon, and I don't mean run half then walk/jog, I want to run the whole time! I want to do this before I'm 40...possible? Totally! Then maybe a triathlon, but I'm not one for swimming, so that could be a NO! But at least one marathon, but more would make me feel better..

Day 2

weight: 158.4
BMI: Didn't check today
Workout:
Lazy, compared to yesterday.
I did jog in place while watching the last 20 minutes of Biggest Loser
Running around after kids
50 jumping jacks

Well, today was more of a struggle! Working doesn't make this easy for me. I don't have everything that I have here at home. The weather was kinda yucky, and my son was overly tired so the walk that I wanted, well, its still just a thought.
I did great with my diet today, still no sugar! Its actually alot easier then I thought. I'm not having a hard time with it at all....not yet at least. I'm eating smaller portions and I can honestly say, I feel better about myself, and I know that this is only day 2 but 28 days to go isn't that bad! I think its so hard to keep motivation, so I'm going to treat myself....of course this won't be for a while. Once I am down to a healthier me, and I'm happy with my weight loss (around 30lbs) then I am going to buy some nice jeans. I'm thinking some True Religions or something along that line. Every girl wants nice jeans...I don't think I have ever had jeans that fit in every way they were supposed to! So if I can get down to around 120-125....I get my jeans!!!! I think when we try to loose weight, we don't always have something to reach for. Its usually just loose weight and then go from there, why not treat yourself to something you really want! Dress? A sexy pair of heels? Jeans? Diamond necklace? Etc etc...

I'm off to bed, putting in 3 hours tomorrow hopefully! Always need to be well rested

Day 1

Weight: 159
BMI: 31.29
Workout:
25 minutes of aerobics on the wii fit.
30 minutes of jogging in place
plus running around the house after the kiddo and chores around the house.....Hey everything burns calories!

Ive only had about 800 calories so far today. I feel like I'm doing pretty good. I have a good frame of mind currently, and as my husband always tells me, I'm finally getting some time management. Its about 2:30 and dinner is done for tonight, tomorrows is started, dishes are done, bedrooms are cleaned, things are looking good! I haven't had any sugar...except for that natural sugar in fruits. I did make a smoothie for me and my son though. I'm always afraid that neither of us are getting enough fruits and veggies, so this is what I made...he LOVED it!
half a banana
1 whole orange
1 cup unsweetened applesauce
about 1 cup of strawberry yogurt
blended it till it was smooth! Tasted pretty well, but I need to get some more fruit in the house. I don't do well with bananas so I only had a small glass but its still more fruit then I normally eat.

I feel like Day 1 is always easy, your motivated, life and reality still haven't hit because your in your own world. I'm hoping this motivation stays with me. I work tomorrow, as a nanny, so I think we are going to go for a while and run around as long as the weather is nice, if not, then I will be jogging in place a ton!!!!

Total calories for the day: 1,375

Pretty good if you ask me. I'm trying to stay around 1, 500/day so if the weekend I go over its ok, as long as I don't go over too much! Today all in all was fairly easy, we will see what challenges come tomorrow! I think tomorrow, Ill add my measurements. You can't always see the change in weight but inches show....Im thinking arms, upper leg and waist???

Also, if you look at this blog or read it or anything, please leave me a comment, and let me know. I wonder if anyone is actually reading this, I figured there are millions of people, so at least 1 person must be slightly interested...Just a thought, let me know if your out there!

Introduction

I want to start by explaining why I'm doing this.
I'm 24 years old and out of shape. I have a son that isn't even 2 and I'm having trouble keeping up with him at times. I should be able to run around and playing all day, but at times "Mommy needs a break". It breaks my heart to know I am at this point, the point of lost hope and tears. I hate my weight issue and I'm tired of dealing with it. Ive tried crash diets, fad diets and we can't forget the famous yo yo diets. Ive never done diet pills, and never plan on it. I can workout really well for a few days, then I rest for a week...not a good way to loose weight. I live in Utah, were everyone is fit and loves being outdoors. I'm originally from Ohio, were outdoor activities don't exist and we go out to eat when we want to get together with friends! Being here in Utah has given me the desire I needed to loose weight. There are skinny cute moms, and they jog with their kids in the morning, and some family activities including hiking, skiing, doing a 5k...blah blah blah...you get the picture! My family, we like being outdoors but after an hour or 2...we are tired worn out and go home and watch tv, while eating!

Ive decided to give myself a 30 day challenge. I have everything I need here at home to loose the weight, I just need to throw out the excuses! Easier said then done~
I'm not going to give myself a weight that I want to get down to...but I will say loosing 10lbs in a month would be wonderful. I want to be healthy and happy. Weight is just a number, nothing more, but being healthy is a lifestyle and something I need to reach for.

Each day I will post my weight, BMI, and what workouts I did, or will be doing.
I will also be keeping a food journal, and may add a few entries on here...
I will blog about how hard it is to stay away from the cupcake I want, or the mint chocolate chip ice cream I'm craving. Becoming healthy is going to be hard for me, I love sweets, junk food, and sitting around.

Workouts will include my Wii Fit, EA Active, Ab Roller, and a few other things, that are done with things around the house!

With that all being said, its time to workout and get going on things!